My soul longs for my bondmate, it has been far too long since I've seen his face. I fear my decision to leave the guild affected him far more than he thought, now he doesn't even wake. And the longing for him causes a physical ache in my soul, only time I don't feel the ache and sadness is when I sleep, so the depression causes me to not be fully conscious in the lands for long. I know I made the right decision for me. The happy guild I loved before became quiet as a tomb, and because of my past actions I felt it was my fault. So I did what I thought would be best for them, as well as for myself, and being that I heard they got new members, I suppose I was was right to leave. I am honestly glad, just because I couldn't stay doesn't mean I don't want them to flourish. I just don't know what this will mean for my love and me. How can we make things work if we don't see each other. I don't want to lose another bondmate, I barely survived my despondent depression the first time, will I survive another loss if he chooses not to come back? I honestly don't know.